X of Wands was shaped by the experience of being pulled apart. To see the dream sitting on a shelf but never asking the universe for it. Fearing what it might cost to reach out for it. Fearing what it might cost to walk away without it. Growing up, we’re taught to “chase our dreams” but soon we’re fed through a funnel with our heads down, debt up, on a course for no option but normalcy. If It Kills Me is the fight against that tide. It expresses the decision to take the dream off the back burner and live with intention, to spend your life building the one you want, rather than stitching the safety net.